4 weeks

Today my baby is 4 weeks, the most pure and easy kind of love i ever knew, the kind of live that makes me feel happy when i wake 3 times in the middle of the night and stay awake for a hour each time and when i look at his face .. It all worth it for me.

My baby boy is 4 weeks old and i feel that i never knew life without him and i feel that i was born to be his mummy and be there for him.

I never felt that way about being a house wife or a mum .. But i do now .. I feel that they are amazing things although i am still searching for something for myself.

I feel frustrated when he is sad and i would do anything to fix all of his issues.

I love having a child although it is a terrifying thing but totally rewarding and totally worth it, it fills the heart in a new way.

Ofcourse there are the i hate my life moments, but they pass fastly and i pray they stop coming at all, Hormons are any girls worst friend !

That is it for now !

Have a nice day πŸ™‚


My giving birth Story – Giving Birth in the Netherlands


So i gave birth, excatly Β 3 weeks ago, on 29/3/2016.

It was a very big day and it was a huge huge deal, i was having back labour, i didn’t know that it was back labour and i really believed i was having some colon issues or the baby moves hurt my back so i kept silenced until i called my midwife at 7:30 in the morning.

She was delivering another baby, so she was late and she came 9:30, she checked me, i was 7 cm dialated, me and my husband were sure that it was false labour, but to our amusment it was real, we were having the baby.

We went to the hospital and i changed and i was fully dialated, and the pain was ok, it was handable, then they said it was back labout and i have no contractions in my uterus so they had to give me something to make the contractions more so it would reach my stomache and help the baby move down.

I was begging for an epidural, i was crying for it, but it was too late, and they refused to give me any drugs, i really want to ask a dr or to search to know, why can’t a woman have any medicine after she is fully dialated?

Anyway, they asked the nurse to put the IV, and they couldn’t find my viens for a long time i guess it was 30-45 mins, they put it in.

I was screaming and the asked me Β to breathe but no one can imagine how much it is painful and hard, i really didnt know how to push and i was so embaressed and didn’t want my husband to see anything and i just wanted him to stay next to my head and not seeing anything because really it must be a horrific show.

Then he was born, and it was amazing, all the pain stopped or became unnoticable, he was bruised a little bit, but they said it is normal.

I hugged him for 2 hours and really hugging a just born baby can heal every broken thing inside you.

and i’ll continue later ! πŸ˜€

Bye πŸ˜€


A new project

So i am making a new project, i have been working on it for the last 2 months, i am making my own health and fitness blog, it will be all about the articles that i want to write and the ideas that i want to share.

Dealing with a personal project while having a baby is a big big deal that i wish i can fullfill because i need my personal project.

wish me luck and stay tuned for it !