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Breakfast ideas for 10 months old

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Because i am suffering through feeding my little boy, he is a picky eater, and he like to feed himself, and he doesn’t like soft smooth food, he likes real food with real texture.

Side note: I’ve chosen to follow the mindset that says to feed your baby whatever you are eating since he is 8 months old, except for (honey, and un cooked cow milk) other than that he eates everything i am eating because we don’t eat fried, processed food, we eat as nature as possible and we cook with healthy oils so he is eating from that.

So i am writing done ideas for feeding him that i thought of and that he likes very much


Oats bread with labenah

Omelete eggs with oats bread

Oats cracker with labenah

Oats pancake with banana

Whole wheat bread with labenah

Whole wheat bread with omelete

Fruit Salad

Brown beans with whole wheat bread

Oven cooked falafel with whole wheat bread

Hummus with whole wheat bread

Tahini with whole wheat bread

Baba ganoush with whole wheat bread

I make all though at home with super healthy recipes for me and for my son, stay tuned for them 🙂



Being Erica

It is a new show that i decided to watch, it is new for me but it is not actually new, it is actually old and it is only 4 seasons, it really nice and takes about Erica who doesn’t have her life figured out at all, everything is messed up, no career, no relationship, bad family relationships, and one day she drinks something that has nuts and go to the hospital where she meets Dr.tom, a therapist who promises to fix her life and change it and help her to be everything she wants, after a while she agrees and commits, he ask her to write a list of regrets, of things she believes she did wrong and believes if she changed her decisions in those situations her life would be better, she did wrote a really long list.

when she wrote the list i was thinking, what are my regrets ? what are the things i regret doing? so i decided i will make a list, not because i am like erica can go back and fix them, but to forgive myself and let them go, to accept myself as i am now, to be proud of her, to believe in her, i am at a very low point of my life for the past two years and those days are it’s peak. I feel that i am suffocated in the mother’s role and that i have no space to learn and create and think.

I wonder what i am regretting? and if i am regretting it? the whole purpose of the show is to make everyone see that your regrets are nothing, mostly they won’t change your life now, they just may help you see more if you looked into the situation more.

So i have no regrets, being a mother is tough and hard and draining, but it helped me grow into the person that i am now and for that i am grateful.

You should see being Erica, you will enjoy it so much.

Speed of sound

So this song is haunting me, the question in the begining:

how long before i get in? before it starts ? before i begin?

I feel that i had the greatest most rich life in college, i was free, i got to do what i wanted mainly, fight with my parents, fail, get close to many kinds of people, during this time i found a little bit of myself, but i need more, i need to live more, i need to restart, i need to move, but i left my country to a country that i don’t know it’s language and it is awful, not the country, i am in love with the netherlands, i never want to leave, it is awful that i cannot speak dutch, i feel stupid, i feel dump, i really wish i can just study and talk, but taking a course while taking care of a baby, and most course are way more expensive than my budget, complicated situation.

How to learn dutch? how to master it so i can begin here? so i can have a career and friends and people?

I just wish i can find a cheap center or tutor who accepts that my baby will come with me. that’s all what i wish for now.



She hated goodbyes, always have avoided them, when she didn’t feel comfortable, she just left, vanished into thin air, she mastered the art of being just ‘not there’, she did it to all the friends she abandoned, all the lovers she left, without thinking of how they felt, or if it hurts people when she does that.

She thought it is a quick fix, let’s go, let’s run away, let’s just go and never come back, maybe it came from being hesitated and not knowing if she should leave or stay so she just left, maybe she loved them too much to stay and continue, maybe. She actually doesn’t know.

Even when it came to death, she ran away, she never visited her grandfather whose was dying for weeks in the hospital and she avoided even talking to her dying grandmother, that’s all she was, a runner, a coward and a terrified person.

Why did she do that? Why? She never knew but the part of her that understands goodbyes wasn’t there at all, she didn’t do them, she just ran.

But -as always in those kind of stories- something happened, something that changed her, her life and her perspective forever, something that opened up the empathy in her heart, something that really opened up her eyes.

Her father died, un expectedly, the last time she talked to him was 3 days before his death, she never had the chance to say goodbye, she never appreciated having him, she always has seen him as the monster who tried to take away her freedom and self-stem, that was her father, who he is for her, maybe in the last couple of years that got better, but not good enough for a man like him.

Her father died and luckily, she had the chance to say goodbye to his body and kiss his forehead, in his funeral they asked her if she wanted to see him, kiss him and say goodbye, she didn’t think for a second, at all, she just went and did it.

You would think that kissing a dead body is a weird thing, but not at all, when it is your amazing dead father, the amazing man who was always there for you even when you was that obnoxious teenager who thought she ruled the world, but she didn’t know that while she ruled the world he was the one who made her crown and throne, he is the one who carried her through all of her life and gave her the best life ever, he was the one who did it all and she was the one who was foolish and stupid and didn’t see or appreciate and wasn’t grateful at all.

She was the one who always told her friends how much a monster her id for trying to rape her freedom out of her, but he was only protecting her as any other good father would do.

Now, she is a parent, she is a grown up, and when she remembers her each time she cries, each time she needs money or feel in any kind of a need, she remembers the only man who could make her feel better, give her money and feed her.

The loss of her father taught her many lessons, the most important one of them is to appreciate the people you love, call them, make them know, always talk to them as if you are saying goodbye to them, as if It is the last time, as if you will never talk again, as if one of you will die tomorrow.

And the people who you want to leave, be strong, leave with dignity, leave with pride, be a grown up and talk to them, tell them what is happening and tell them why it is happening, respect them because one day they were the closest to you, they listened to you, they loved you and you loved them, so respect the memory, respect the history and respect the love.

It’s the art of leaving, the art of saying goodbye, don’t ever get so close and then vanish, don’t ever do that to people, you will be the reason they feel not respected and unappreciated forever.

Don’t ever be the reason of someone feeling like that, be humble, have empathy, and say goodbye.

Gallstones 2 

So i decided to search for a treatment before i go for the surgery as i am terrified of surgeries.

I found this book my physical therpaist told me about, the amazing liver and gallbladder flush, and i think i may try it.

Also i found a natural doctor who studied medicine but also studied alternative medicine and he said he can try out helping me and gave me tons of medicines to try.

I really wish they all work.

I will keep you updated.

6 months and a week 

My son is now 6 months and a week .. i thought i really should restart blogging more frequently .. so i am starting now..

He is a happy boy .. my experience with him is the greatest thing that happened to me .. also the hardest and the most draining ..

Maybe it is the most draining because i am sick and not healthy at the moment and trying to get my health back ..

I was diagnosed with gall stones and liver hemagnioma (if it was spelled right) 

I will write more about that as i go .. i really wish i can blog everyday and that is what i will try to do .. 

My son is an energy draining machine just like all children but i try to enjoy some moments with him ..

That is it for now 🙂 

Gallstones journey 1 


Almost 3 months ago i knew that i have gallstones in my gallbladder, anyone who knows me will know that i was suffering from weird attacks and pains since my son was 2 weeks old.

it took my doctor 4 months, 3 blood tests and an ultrasound to know that i have them.

now i have to decide between living with them or doing the surgery.

 Also there are some herbal remidies that i can try.

What do you think i should do?